menyesal tak sudah

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
after all nurul baru je habis cuti sem dan mula kembali ke alam study yg sungguhlaa mencabar hati keimanan kesabaran..semuanya laa

actually malamni nurul tkde laa nk share something usefull ke ape..it just want to luahkan everything that inside my mind..after all result baru kluar and ia sangat menghampakan..dek disebabkan kehampaan yang terlampau membuatkan nurul mula terfikir macam2.. 

like how it could happend??
why??
what is my fault??
why HE give me such a difficult thing like this??
its that cause of me??

arghhhhhh...

yer..all of this is my fault..MY FAULT
i started it all over..and now i ...

Its hard to believe
But it’s the facts
Its already late to menyesal
What I need now is to redha and move on

Maybe it hard to let it go
But it is the right and only choices
I have to leave it be

I now its hard to move on,
But it would be better then you drag him down to hell
With your  precious nafu yang susah sgt nak kawal dosa

Just like sis always said..GET A LIFEEE~~

What you have to do is..
Get a new life..
A better life.
Be a better person after all

Don’t you forget on what you hed promise to dad??
To get a new life..new person that could happy him after all

So..what happened now with all those promises.
What you had done after all this while..

bukan nak bebel..just nak share what i feel bila diduga sebegini rupa..

Pernah tak
Bila kau dh mula move on,
Bila kau dah mula nak lupakan sejarah lama
And make a new life better,
Bila kau dah mula kejar cinta Allah.

Tetibe
Kau diuji semula,
Dia,
Manusia yang sedya upaya kau cuba utuk lupakan,
Datang semula ,
Menuntut segalanya
Seakan ingin memulakan segalanya semula

i just dont know what i have to do now..
tulis ni pun just nk realease tension..
dengan harapan ade yg sedia membantu..kot laa kan..
jadi tukar dengar cirita nurul pun its okeyy..

i guess..that the end..
nk offline dah..nak p cari TUHAN..
Dia rindu sangat aku gamaknye..
tu yg ditariknya nye aku sebegini rupa..bagi sedar diri balik..

wallahualam.




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