STOP HUMILIATE ME!!

"stop..please stop humiliate me!!..
sye dah tak sanggup lagi nak dengar semua ni..
awk buat sye makin membenci diri sye sendiri.."hanya sekadar rintihan di dalam hatiku.

kenape masyarakat suke sangat 'judge' seseorang tu hnya daripada pandangan luaran..
adakah ini suatu lumrah.

"aimi,ko tu bukannye cantik pun..jadi x payah nak berangan laa akn ade lelaki yang handsome yang kaya nak dekat dengan ko.."
"perasanye kau ni aimi..kau tu hanya layak dengan dengan orang yang muka macam rumah setinggan tak siap je"
"aimi tak cantik..muka buruk..x boleh kawin dengan orang hensem macam lee min ho"
"tolong la cermin diri ko tu dulu sbelom nak rapat ngn aku ..x sedar diri!!muka macam minah indon!!"

just because of this i lost all of my confidence for a long time ago..i always cloister and not confidence in my life..if the one whom told me is my enemy or people that i do not know..i don't care..but those people whom say this word is people that always around me..people that i believe a lot..
how could i let it go..how could i just ignore it..people always saying bad things and hurting me in many ways but i always ignored them but in my heart...the infernal flame of hate ,anger,fury,deceive and revenge  rage upon my heart patience is the only way that i used to reduce the flame into amber.....but the amber can still ignite at any moment....

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